Change

Music is such a huge part of my life. I never realized just how important it was to me until that part of my life was greatly changed. Over a year ago I stepped down from the music ministry at Church for reasons that were significant to me. Each week as I sit in church my heart hurts that the beautiful piano sits unused and untouched. A keyboard has taken over. Not that I don't thoroughly love the keyboard, I own one myself, however, it is not the instrument that the piano is.

Somewhere along the line I have become outdated and old fashioned I guess. I visited a church in town this past week that still uses the piano and organ. It was like going back in time. I loved the sermon, the hymns, the harmonies, the choir, the baby in the back that played, the grandpa that turned 90, the relaxed atmosphere where someone could raise their hand and make an announcement.

As I visited the church with my family I wondered what my teenagers would think of the service. Rather certain that they would belittle the, less than trendy music, attire, and facility, but I was thrilled to find out that they liked it. Trevor's response was that it was obvious that the people really cared about each other and the Lord, because it certainly wasn't the music that brought them :)

As my kids get older, my priorities have been arranged and rearranged. Since we live so far from family, it is very important to me that my kids have adults that encourage them and hold them accountable for their growth and maturity. Will there be people who are excited when they graduate, go to college, get engaged, married and become parents?

As for my younger two, they never get the opportunities that the others had. No Christmas programs, no Easter songs. Maybe that shouldn't be so significant, but it is to me. I want my girls to know that even though they are young they are a vital member of the church body. Not a group that is pushed to the side.

Change is hard, it pushes us to dig deep and find out why we do what we do. Who we are, what we believe. I am not sure where God is leading our family, but I am excited to see where he takes us, or leaves us :)